Today September 28th
2012 is my appa’s 59th birthday celebration in Thirukadaiyur. I
never expected I will be writing a blog sitting here in USA on this day. That
is the uncertainty we had to deal in the modern era. I feel so perturbed which
I cannot even articulate in words. Writing is something which mitigates my pain
so I wanted to pen my thoughts.
One had to pay the
price of being in a foreign land many times. It so happened that I got to change jobs exactly at the wrong time. Because I am in the process of
transitioning my visa to a new employer I had to stay in the country. I felt so
bad when I realized I will be missing the function. I wanted to cry but somehow
age stopped me doing so. I had to live on reality getting to know every minute
details about the function over the phone. I am the sort of person who enjoys even a cup
of tea standing in the balcony and silently expressing my thanks to almighty..Basically
I enjoy every small slice of life.
One question which I
keep asking myself time and again is “What am I doing in this country?” this
question is basically going over the loop and am still trying to come up with
an answer. Well basically commitment has been made from personal perspective.
We have invested time, money and energy over education according to the US
system and suddenly to come out of it would sound selfish from my side.
When lot of thoughts
have been running over my mind in the last few days I also happen to listen to
some of the cases my wife is seeing on every day to day basis in her Intern. Single
parent, sexual misuse, diseases to tender kids, torment at an early stage etc.,
when I listen to all of these I have no other option other than to show
gratitude to almighty and request to bless the whole world.
All I can say is ..I love you amma and appa. I feel bad not
coming to the function but it is mere circumstances I couldn’t make it. I am
sure everything happens for a reason. I always believe in Karma and am sure my
good deeds will earn me a good place.